DOWN 15 LBS!

I am so excited I am down 15lbs! I was watching what I was eating and counting every calorie, and that was almost making me stall in my weight loss. I now just eat healthy and give myself a day where I can have a treat. If a day is bad I don't beat myself up over it. Honestly that has been the hardest part of it all for me. I know I have a lot more to go but, i feel great and know I can do it! Thanks for all the support you guys have been giving me. I want to thank Jeff too, he has been a great support through this all, and giving me the opportunity to get healthy again.

Christmas is coming YAY!

Alright, I hope you're all ready for this. 12 Days of Christmas Giveaways begins on Saturday!

Alright ladies Amy is doing a huge giveaway 12 Days of Christmas please go to her blog and sign up for some great prizes.
http://amyclary.blogspot.com/2008/11/official-rules-for-12-days-of-christmas.html
I know I will be there daily to check the items out and her fun blog as well.
Thanks Toni, for letting me know about this check out Toni's site as well this lady totally rocks and her blog is so fun! http://www.juststopscreaming.com/

MY HEALTH TIPS FOR THE DAY!

One or two meals a week, substitute beans or legumes instead of meat in salads, soups, or in the main dish.

Chill soups, gravies, and stews in the refrigerator, then skim the fat off the top.

Include more fiber to feel full. Eat more lentils, dry beans, peas, vegetables, fruits, brown rice, and whole grains.

For a great low-fat, low-sugar snack, try no-butter, low-salt popcorn. Two cups only has 60 calories!

Removing the skin from chicken saves you 5 grams of fat every time.

When baking, use applesauce instead of butter to save 90 calories.

Cut back on foods with hidden sugar like ketchup, white bread, canned fruit, and salad dressing.

Grate your cheese rather than slicing - you will use less cheese and save fat grams.

My Weekend Run down

Well, Thursday Jeff's dad and step mom came into town. We had a wonderful time visiting with them. I truly wish they would move here. Pam my MIL is just so much like me I just love having her around. The kids miss them so much when they leave it would be so nice to have them near. We stayed up until I think 3:30 in the morning talking all 4 of us, it was fun and we just couldn't keep our eyes open any longer or I swear we would have stayed awake later.

Friday Morning I woke up with a horrible migraine, the light the noise it was killing me. I even felt like I was going to puke it was so bad. Jeff was great he let me sleep all day long and kept coming up stairs to check up on me. Also for once I woke up from being sick and the house was not a disaster it was fabulous! So really my Friday was a huge waste just sleeping I couldn't even watch shows it hurt that much.

Saturday was a nice relaxing day again I still had a headache not as bad luckily. The kids did art projects where they made a huge mess and got paint absolutely everywhere. They had fun, and I was able to rest some so I guess I can't complain. When Riley and Alex arrived home from their playdate and going to the movies we had a nice dinner, and then our new tradition FAMILY MOVIE NIGHT. It's so nice it is a time where we are all home and enjoying time together. The kids look forward to it, they even cancel plans with friends to hang with us. I know that is not going to last long so I am taking advantage of it for as long as I can.

Today Sunday was nice and just another home day. I was able to make Christmas presents, and nope I can't tell you what because too many relatives read this...LOL. This evening was fun all of us played the wii I got my butt kicked at bowling by Alex he got 2 sets of Turkey's, dang him..LOL I decided that I was going to make my Christmas music cd's tonight and so I did. It is so nice that the Holidays are just around the corner. I look so forward to seeing family this week, and having almost all the cousins together sorry Meri you can't be there. I am planning on putting up the tree the Sunday after Thanksgiving I am so excited! I love my tree and all it's beautiful colors, sitting by the fire with Jeff with the tree lights on just holding each other. Well, I am stinky so I need to go take my shower LOVE YOU ALL!

Feeling a little sad.

I'm feeling a little sad tonight. I am just realizing how fast my kids are growing up. Alex has always been my snuggler I mean he is 10 almost 11 now and he is always giving me hugs and kisses and telling me how much he loves me. Well, that is all changing the other day on Saturday we were walking downtown he was holding my hand, we turn the corner and a few boys come around the corner and out he pulled his hand from mine. Tonight when he was headed to bed he gave me a "Goodnight I love you." followed by a little brush of the shoulder. I mean of course I knew this day would come but, does it really have to?

I miss the children running through the door after school running to find me to give me huge hugs and tell me "Mommy I missed you so much." Now I get kids backpacks and coats thrown all over the hall floor and the first thing out of their mouths is "Can I have a snack?" Getting information about their day is like pulling teeth sometimes. Next year Jake will be in school and I will be home alone. I am not sure what I am going to do with my time. I hope I can go into their classrooms and be the "real" SAHM. I dreamed all my life of being a huge part of their class life and now I will have my chance. I do have to admit I am scared, it is just around the corner that I will be alone in the house my identity will be changing. How can I call myself a SAHM (oh for those who don't know = Stay at home mom). I mean I won't have children at home during the day what does that make me? Should I get a job? Should I go back to school? Should I just live for myself for once? So many questions and such a short time to come up with an answer.
I know in the end it will all be ok but, for now with my baby turning 5 in Jan and my oldest turning 11 in Dec it all seems to be coming so fast.

There are always two sides to every story

So my SIL or one of them a very smart lady...LOL . Reminded me today that when people talk about fights or someone pissing them off always remember there are always two sides to the story. So a little bit ago Jeff and I got in a huge fight. I won't go into details but , he decided that instead of telling both our sides of the story to his family that he would just bash me. I am totally at fault for all that I did in the fight and I should have never asked him to move out but, at the same time shouldn't I be asked what he might have done to deserve such harsh actions? I mean I know I can be a bitch oh do I know, and I have my many faults but I am not so mean that I would kick my husband the father of my children out of my house with out good reason. All is good now we are working our problems out but I just want to remind everyone that THERE ARE ALWAYS TWO SIDES TO EVERY STORY, so don't judge the one you don't know so fast.

My reason for living

These are the 4 fabulous kiddos and the reason why I wake up every morning wanting to be a better person. All of my kids give me the strength to go on with life no matter what God throws at me. I know with all of them in my world it is a much better place. I am so grateful that I was blessed with 4 such amazing and different children, and I am so happy I can share them with you all.

Frustrating changing my life.

I'm really pissed right now! I have been changing my eating habits and exercising on my wii fit for 3 weeks now, and I have lost 10 lbs. Yes that is great but, at the same time I for some reason can't get enough calories in my diet. I am ranging from 1000- 1150. I don't want to add fat in and when I add the calories the fat comes with it. I am eating 5 meals a day and still not enough calories. So for the last 3 days my weight is going up and down. I am just so frustrated, any suggestions anyone out there?

UGH ARE YOU SERIOUS!

Why do people fall for the "get it for free" ads? I mean come on people you have to pay shipping, and if you don't cancel the subscription to the item they charge ya an arm and a leg. My DumbA$$ husband seems to fall for these things all the time. Just last night I found yet another thing he bought, some stupid pomclear pills that help you lose weight (ya, right!). I asked him specifically "did you cancel this?" his response "Oh yeah I took care of it." So I go to look to see how much money we have for me to go grocery shopping , you know the thing we really need in our life's lo and behold $44.90 for POMCLEAR! is subtracted from my acct. Are you f'ing kidding me? I am just irate. Normally hey 44.90 may not be a big deal but when all I had in my acct was 61.19, it's a huge deal! Now because someone (J) was an idiot I have to go borrow money from my mother just great what a lovely beginning of my weekend. Sorry he's on my bad list today it just seems like one thing after another today.