Feeling a little blue

With life being so hectic lately and taking care of Jeff, I have neglected my friends. I miss them and it actually makes me almost cry. I was so close to so many people this Summer and it seems ever since school has started my friendships have been drifting away. I feel horrible, I love you all, and it makes me sad to think I am not as close as i was to some of you. I LOVE YOU ALL, and am so very very grateful for having such amazing and caring friends. Happy Holidays to you all!

Today was beautiful!

So today I woke up and the snow was falling outside. It was just beautiful. I got the kids ready for school, and hopped on my wii fit, and did some yoga and strength training along with some step. After about a little over an hour of working out, I decided to get dressed and walk outside. It was cold but a nice peaceful walk. I truly live in an area of "Winter Wonderland" By the time I was done with my hike treading through over a foot of snow at least another 6 inches had fallen. I was covered in melting icy snow, and my hair was frozen over, I didn't care it was amazing. I love the time I have to spend alone working out, it gives me time to just walk or run, or whatever with just my thoughts. I don't have anyone asking for something or wanting me for anything. It is great to have me time. Women especially moms I don't think give themselves enough "me" time. I am very lucky to have a hubby who gives me all the time I need for myself, well of course within moderation. I have been working out for 54 days not in a row of course I had a couple weeks where I was ill and such. Anyway I am down 20 lbs now. It feels so good to be able to fit in clothes that were too tight, or I just couldn't get into. It feels good knowing that I have begun a life change and that my kids are eating healthier that my whole family is. I have such great friends and great family that support me through it all, and I want to say thanks and I love you all so much!

Okay Toni tagged me and here is what I have to answer.

7 Random Things About Me :

1. I can fit my fist in my mouth..yep I am a freak.
2. I took Spanish for 4 yrs and well I can barely speak a word of it.
3. I hate being cold but my favorite thing is snow in the Winter...go figure.
4. I wish I lived by the ocean instead if in the mountains.
5. I don't have a favorite color I have many Orange/brown/pink/lime green and blue.
6. I have attended and been a member of many different religious churches in my 32 years.
7. My favorite thing to eat is chicken Caesar salad.

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY -FIREHOUSE

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Thirteen things I want to eat right now but won't! 1. A juicy cheeseburger with mushrooms and bacon...Yeah that would not be good for me at all. 2. A big bowl of coffee lovers ice cream from Cold Stone Creamery..Oh yum my mouth is watering thinking about it. 3. Fried Zucchini, really do I need to say more? 4. Chocolate Chip cookies right out of the oven, oh heaven! 5. A bowl of Golden Grahams cereal. My fav as a kid. 6. Sweet and Sour Terriyaki Chicken sandwich from Subway with extra cheese...mmmm 7. Chicken sandwich from McD's. Oh I can taste the mayonnaise going to my hips now. 8. To top off my sandwich LG French fries from MC D's. 9. A strawberry breeze from dairy Queen. 10. Hot fudge sandwich from Goody's 11. An elephant ear, oh the warm crust and cinnamon always makes my day at the fair. 12. A kit kat, again an other favorite of mine from a kid 13. Milk Duds, problem with those suckers is I eat the whole box and don't even realize it, the melting chocolate and caramel...MMMM! So what are your thirteen things for Thursday?

OMG!!!!

I thought I was tired yesterday! Today I am exhausted. Jeff was up at least every 2 hrs last night, I have a newborn in the house..LOL. The meds kept giving him bad dreams, I think he woke up telling me the wiring on the doors were wrong twice. He got up and started taking his shoulder harness off like 3 times. I had to change his ice pressure machine, and get him eye meds in the middle of the night. I laughed at myself when I woke up and had noticed a 3 hr span had gone by and was thanking God for that...LOL. He is doing good still in a lot of pain but, well hopefully after we get more meds in him he will be fine. Last night while I was sleeping he watched tv, and I wanted to get up and sleep in the girls room but knew I couldn't leave him and am I glad I didn't. Today is going to be a long day but luckily mom is helping out, and taking the girls for another night for me. Having the boys here is easy Alex is a huge help. Jake stayed at Veny's for the day yesterday and she got him to nap so hopefully today I can snuggle him on the couch and get a few zzzz's myself. Well I better go Jeff needs his ice changed some more meds and prob. something else. Thanks for listening to me complain all!

TIRED......

I am so tired, today has been so stressful. I didn't sleep well last night in anticipation of Jeff's shoulder surgery today. I woke up in a bad mood, and so did he. We fought all morning. Not really the way you want to go into surgery. I was being a stubborn and not very supportive wife. I even left him in the surgery waiting room, I just couldn't handle the silent treatment, and of course he didn't want to discuss any problems at the time. I was pissed, and wanted to hash it out. Well, really I think I was just pissed that I had no control over anything at that point. Igf you know me well you know me not having control is hard for me. The thought of anything happening to him made me cry and I asked the nurse if I could go back in the prep area again. I went back hugged him and said "I love you, I really don't want you going into surgery like this." So all was good we held hands we laughed I think i made him more at ease like I should have from the beginning. Surgery was at 10:30 he didn't go in until 12 and we left and were home around 2:30. It was a long day from 9-2:30 at the hospital, and after with him all druggy he apologized and said "I love you, you are so good to me. I am so sorry for my selfish asshole ways." I said "Honey we don't need to talk about it now." Yes, I do, I love you and want you to know that." All he wants to do is lay and snuggle with me. He really is the love of my life and I am so grateful for all he does for me and the kids. I am very lucky to have him even with his selfish assholeish ways...LOL
Thank you all for the calls, and emails, and prayers I feel so good I know I can count on you all.

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My poor girl...

Riley was hurt yesterday at school. The morning started with Riley coughing and not feeling very well. I am all for kids staying home if they are sick. Well about 30 min. after her brother and sister left she was running around and playing so I decided "To school you go!" I drove Riley to school, and went on my merry way to my organizers meeting. "Ring Ring" on the other end is the principal of the kids school. "Hi Moriah, Riley was in an accident at school today, she is going to need stitches." My heart just sank I think hearing that your children are hurt almost hurts us as parents more then them. I rush out of kiddoz, and drive to Riley's school. To find her and her sister sitting on the nurses bed. The nurse removes the bloody bandage and underneath is this huge gash on her forehead. On the other bed is poor Hunter with an eye patch over his eye. I guess Riley and Hunter were both running about 2 min into their morning recess, and Bamm they just ran head face into one another. I guess all the blood drained out of my body and I was white because the secretary offered to drive us to the doctors about 5 times...LOL. Well, Riley was a very brave little girl they put some blue numbing stuff on it for about 20 min, and then put a few needle shots in the cut before stitching it up. She didn't move her head at all. All you could see was one lonely tear falling from her eyes. She is feeling much better today a headache but much better. We took our first shower to clean the blood out of her hair, and we removed the bandage and she saw her 7 stitches. I think it scared her a bit because she wanted that bandage put back on right away. I couldn't even convince her to take a picture for memories. What an ordeal the scary part of being a mom is getting that phone call from someone saying your child has been hurt.

It's been a while...

Well, Thanksgiving has come and gone. It was fun and it was ummm interesting. I drank a little too much the night of Thanksgiving, oh that is a long story. Unfortunately half of Jeff's family knows about that one. I had a great time reconnecting with Jeff's family we went and saw Twilight Wednesday night, and much to my dismay I really disliked it. I know I have a ton of friends who are absolutely in love with the books, and the movie. I just couldn't get into it. There were parts I actually laughed at, it was just corny to me. Which really surprises me because I like some pretty lame teeny bopper type stuff. I have even tried to start reading the book 3 times, and just can't get into it. Oh well, I guess to each their own right?

After having a horrible hangover on Friday I slept all day, and woke up sick. I have a cold UGH! So for the last few days i stayed mostly in bed or asleep on the couch. I am lucky to have a hubby who understood I needed my sleep. Monday I got back into working out again, and maybe it was all the puking on Thursday night but, I lost weight over the Holiday...LOL. I am hoping to be down at least another 10 lbs by Christmas, and I think I can do it. My energy level is so much higher now, and man it feels good to be healthy. I tried to eat a piece of cake the other day and I could only eat half, it was great I got my fill of it but, didn't go over board.

Jeff goes into surgery next week. Not really thrilled about the whole thing. I mean at this time can we really afford him being off of work NO! For those who were around for his last shoulder surgery you know how much fun it was for me. The poor guy just got to sleep all the time while I was waking up every 2 hrs to change the ice in his shoulder pressure machine. Waiting on him hand and foot, not that he wouldn't for me if the tables were turned...but. I am just not looking forward to it. So look for many nights or days of complaining from me for the next 8 weeks...LOL

The kids are so excited for Christmas and have been begging to put up our tree. We live in the land of trees and yes , we have an artificial tree. We have for the last 6 yrs I believe. We started when the kids were young and we didn't want them inhaling pine needles now well, it is just convenient. Plus, I never have to water it, and it is pretty. I guess it won't be happening tonight because I am headed to a pamper chef party.
HAPPY TUESDAY TO YOU ALL!
Mo

DOWN 15 LBS!

I am so excited I am down 15lbs! I was watching what I was eating and counting every calorie, and that was almost making me stall in my weight loss. I now just eat healthy and give myself a day where I can have a treat. If a day is bad I don't beat myself up over it. Honestly that has been the hardest part of it all for me. I know I have a lot more to go but, i feel great and know I can do it! Thanks for all the support you guys have been giving me. I want to thank Jeff too, he has been a great support through this all, and giving me the opportunity to get healthy again.

Christmas is coming YAY!

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MY HEALTH TIPS FOR THE DAY!

One or two meals a week, substitute beans or legumes instead of meat in salads, soups, or in the main dish.

Chill soups, gravies, and stews in the refrigerator, then skim the fat off the top.

Include more fiber to feel full. Eat more lentils, dry beans, peas, vegetables, fruits, brown rice, and whole grains.

For a great low-fat, low-sugar snack, try no-butter, low-salt popcorn. Two cups only has 60 calories!

Removing the skin from chicken saves you 5 grams of fat every time.

When baking, use applesauce instead of butter to save 90 calories.

Cut back on foods with hidden sugar like ketchup, white bread, canned fruit, and salad dressing.

Grate your cheese rather than slicing - you will use less cheese and save fat grams.

My Weekend Run down

Well, Thursday Jeff's dad and step mom came into town. We had a wonderful time visiting with them. I truly wish they would move here. Pam my MIL is just so much like me I just love having her around. The kids miss them so much when they leave it would be so nice to have them near. We stayed up until I think 3:30 in the morning talking all 4 of us, it was fun and we just couldn't keep our eyes open any longer or I swear we would have stayed awake later.

Friday Morning I woke up with a horrible migraine, the light the noise it was killing me. I even felt like I was going to puke it was so bad. Jeff was great he let me sleep all day long and kept coming up stairs to check up on me. Also for once I woke up from being sick and the house was not a disaster it was fabulous! So really my Friday was a huge waste just sleeping I couldn't even watch shows it hurt that much.

Saturday was a nice relaxing day again I still had a headache not as bad luckily. The kids did art projects where they made a huge mess and got paint absolutely everywhere. They had fun, and I was able to rest some so I guess I can't complain. When Riley and Alex arrived home from their playdate and going to the movies we had a nice dinner, and then our new tradition FAMILY MOVIE NIGHT. It's so nice it is a time where we are all home and enjoying time together. The kids look forward to it, they even cancel plans with friends to hang with us. I know that is not going to last long so I am taking advantage of it for as long as I can.

Today Sunday was nice and just another home day. I was able to make Christmas presents, and nope I can't tell you what because too many relatives read this...LOL. This evening was fun all of us played the wii I got my butt kicked at bowling by Alex he got 2 sets of Turkey's, dang him..LOL I decided that I was going to make my Christmas music cd's tonight and so I did. It is so nice that the Holidays are just around the corner. I look so forward to seeing family this week, and having almost all the cousins together sorry Meri you can't be there. I am planning on putting up the tree the Sunday after Thanksgiving I am so excited! I love my tree and all it's beautiful colors, sitting by the fire with Jeff with the tree lights on just holding each other. Well, I am stinky so I need to go take my shower LOVE YOU ALL!

Feeling a little sad.

I'm feeling a little sad tonight. I am just realizing how fast my kids are growing up. Alex has always been my snuggler I mean he is 10 almost 11 now and he is always giving me hugs and kisses and telling me how much he loves me. Well, that is all changing the other day on Saturday we were walking downtown he was holding my hand, we turn the corner and a few boys come around the corner and out he pulled his hand from mine. Tonight when he was headed to bed he gave me a "Goodnight I love you." followed by a little brush of the shoulder. I mean of course I knew this day would come but, does it really have to?

I miss the children running through the door after school running to find me to give me huge hugs and tell me "Mommy I missed you so much." Now I get kids backpacks and coats thrown all over the hall floor and the first thing out of their mouths is "Can I have a snack?" Getting information about their day is like pulling teeth sometimes. Next year Jake will be in school and I will be home alone. I am not sure what I am going to do with my time. I hope I can go into their classrooms and be the "real" SAHM. I dreamed all my life of being a huge part of their class life and now I will have my chance. I do have to admit I am scared, it is just around the corner that I will be alone in the house my identity will be changing. How can I call myself a SAHM (oh for those who don't know = Stay at home mom). I mean I won't have children at home during the day what does that make me? Should I get a job? Should I go back to school? Should I just live for myself for once? So many questions and such a short time to come up with an answer.
I know in the end it will all be ok but, for now with my baby turning 5 in Jan and my oldest turning 11 in Dec it all seems to be coming so fast.

There are always two sides to every story

So my SIL or one of them a very smart lady...LOL . Reminded me today that when people talk about fights or someone pissing them off always remember there are always two sides to the story. So a little bit ago Jeff and I got in a huge fight. I won't go into details but , he decided that instead of telling both our sides of the story to his family that he would just bash me. I am totally at fault for all that I did in the fight and I should have never asked him to move out but, at the same time shouldn't I be asked what he might have done to deserve such harsh actions? I mean I know I can be a bitch oh do I know, and I have my many faults but I am not so mean that I would kick my husband the father of my children out of my house with out good reason. All is good now we are working our problems out but I just want to remind everyone that THERE ARE ALWAYS TWO SIDES TO EVERY STORY, so don't judge the one you don't know so fast.

My reason for living

These are the 4 fabulous kiddos and the reason why I wake up every morning wanting to be a better person. All of my kids give me the strength to go on with life no matter what God throws at me. I know with all of them in my world it is a much better place. I am so grateful that I was blessed with 4 such amazing and different children, and I am so happy I can share them with you all.

Frustrating changing my life.

I'm really pissed right now! I have been changing my eating habits and exercising on my wii fit for 3 weeks now, and I have lost 10 lbs. Yes that is great but, at the same time I for some reason can't get enough calories in my diet. I am ranging from 1000- 1150. I don't want to add fat in and when I add the calories the fat comes with it. I am eating 5 meals a day and still not enough calories. So for the last 3 days my weight is going up and down. I am just so frustrated, any suggestions anyone out there?

UGH ARE YOU SERIOUS!

Why do people fall for the "get it for free" ads? I mean come on people you have to pay shipping, and if you don't cancel the subscription to the item they charge ya an arm and a leg. My DumbA$$ husband seems to fall for these things all the time. Just last night I found yet another thing he bought, some stupid pomclear pills that help you lose weight (ya, right!). I asked him specifically "did you cancel this?" his response "Oh yeah I took care of it." So I go to look to see how much money we have for me to go grocery shopping , you know the thing we really need in our life's lo and behold $44.90 for POMCLEAR! is subtracted from my acct. Are you f'ing kidding me? I am just irate. Normally hey 44.90 may not be a big deal but when all I had in my acct was 61.19, it's a huge deal! Now because someone (J) was an idiot I have to go borrow money from my mother just great what a lovely beginning of my weekend. Sorry he's on my bad list today it just seems like one thing after another today.